New Year
Saturday, January 01, 2011
Seems a shame to start the year with regret... Time for new beginnings perhaps.
Time to say goodbye.
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Meh...
Monday, November 15, 2010
I'm surprised people still visit this blog... But that's nice, I guess... Some memories shouldn't die off.. But, so, if I shouldn't delete this blog, should I move it? It feels... strange to be keeping a journal at the same address when so much about the writer has changed. I suppose I should say something about my life too. Can't wait for the semester to end... The monotony is killing me. But before that, it's time to think seriously about FYP. Not that I haven't been thinking though... A couple of months back, it seemed exciting to me... Now I'm just dreading it.
I just hope that God will give me the wisdom to know the right decision to make, and the courage to make it.
As a side-note, people these days don't have the patience to grind in RPGs anymore... Sad...
Ja ne~
Labels: meta-post, Random Musings, Uni life
Untitled.
Monday, April 26, 2010
Let's see, what to do with this blog? Over the past year, I have contemplated deleting it, because I felt that some of the things I used to write about are no longer a good reflection of who I am now. Even my old style of writing make me cringe. I felt a need to close that chapter of my life, and potentially begin another one.So why am I still writing here? Perhaps I am learning to accept who I was, and to accept that I've changed. Those memories of old need not be buried, because I cannot forget them anyway. Partly, it is that change that prompts me to write again. I would say that three years in university has matured me, but it has also made me a more "closed" and wary person. Because I want to trust again, I'm going to try maintaining a blog again, to begin putting words to my thoughts once more, even if I only end up talking to myself.
This blog was always meant to be personal, an outlet for strange thoughts and unsavoury emotions, and it will probably remain thus. But from here on out, I want it also to be a logbook of my journey to find myself, my confidence, and my sanity (if any). I feel that God is ever molding me and changing me for the better. And in time, perhaps, I will come to love that change and understand myself better.
And so, on that note, let me say: Hello world, again.
- J.R.R. Tolkien
Labels: Random Musings
Reminiscing Transiently
Sunday, March 01, 2009
Forgive me for being a little late in my post-concert reflections. It seems so strange that my high sustained for almost a whole day after the concert. Nostalgia is finally settling in, though. This is a good time for a little quiet reflection.Well, in my opinion, the concert was a success. Not just in terms of the music, but also the memories left behind: the wacky moments in NYH, the stupid jokes, the weird Hong Kong accents, and so much more. I regret not being able to have taken photos with everyone...
Yes, I know, I'm starting to sound sappy. Give me license just this once. After all, I'm growing old... I probably don't have many years left as a performing musician... Or many performances left to look forward to...
In the end, it's the small little things that I'll miss. I'll miss meeting Hui Boon, Yen Nee, Alex, etc at Can 2 for dinner at 1800, then dragging our feet up the hill at 1850. I'll miss Kwang Ying aiming her camera phone at different corners of the room during practice. I'll miss Hiong Poh's blurness and and Kat eating her green tea shaved ice with chocolate fudge. I'll miss Eddie's err... interesting breathing. I'll miss getting a plain waffle and Nescafe mocca for a takeaway dinner, and Weicong sniggering about it. I'll miss... I'll miss...
If time spent in NTU CO is an infinite series, then everything in this AY has converged to that point, on 27th Feb, 2000hrs. And now that that point is past, what is there left for us? You might as well say time stopped for us on 27th February. It did for me.
To the NTU CO committee: thanks for being such wonderful people to work with. Especially to our chair and vice-chair, Yen Nee and Sylvia. I wasn't the most cooperative person, but you two were the most understanding. Thanks for your tireless efforts!
To the cello/bass section: I firmly believe that you guys are the most insane, most lame, most amazing section in this CO. You just make it all so worthwhile... For the guests, thanks for taking the time to practice and perform with us. Do come back again, yes? For the members, I will be back with more chocolates (dark, upon Edna's request). Eddie-senpai, thanks for saving my precioussssssssss Fire Wood... I owe you your king crab, or whatever... XD
To Yen Nee and Alex: thanks for helping me out on Friday the Thirteenth. I'm sorry to have burdened you two, and especially during your dinner time... Guess I should thank Eddie too. If not for his presense and my pride, I would probably have spent the whole practice time outside the music room...
To Victoria and Hui Boon: thanks for helping me with the donuts! *hugs*
To Yarong, Mark, JZ, Geng Hui, Cheah Yee, Charlyn, Ivan (Ho), Janet, Ling Shan, Jie Yin, and everyone who came: thanks so much for the support~~ I hope you had as much fun watching as I had performing!
Everyone else, thanks for making those 2.5 hrs of my life so special for me. The euphoria may die off, but the memories will always leave their mark, like "sticky rosin", to quote Soen.
And may the music that we make never fade away...
Labels: Random Musings
Everything converges to this point...
Friday, February 27, 2009
And indeed it does... For the last two weeks, I've been more stressed than I ever have in the last year or so. I've skipped more meals, or eaten more improper ones, slept less hours in a day (I think the record was 5mins in 24hrs, though I shouldn't be counting that...), and drank the highest concentration of coffee per day. I've also voiced more expletives, but let's just not go there.So, the question is, now that I know everything converges to this point, on the 27th Feb 2009, 2000 (GMT+8), so what? Was it effective? Did it pay off? We shall see tonight...
To the 25 people who got tickets from me, thanks! I've coerced, threatened, and bugged some of you until you guys probably hate me now, but your $12 has made me a very happy person, so it's okay if you hate me, I'll still love you~~.
And always, God is faithful~~
Labels: Random Musings
Friday, January 02, 2009
The end of a year (and the start of another) calls for a blog update... I don't know think many people would be interested in knowing how the year has been for me, however, so I'll keep this short.It was, well, a year of new things: new experiences, new friends, new perspectives. I became of legal age (by Japanese standards, anyway), completed my first year in University, worked my way down my to-read book list, became a proud owner of an NDS, and had my first experience in a string orchestra. I met people who touched my heart and eroded the hikikomori shell, and yet some others who made my skin shiver. Discovered that people are almost never the way they appear to be on first glance. I had my first attempt at cosplaying, and found that it was an extremely stressful, albeit fun, hobby. I learnt that fandoms and music has the magic to break barriers bring the unlikeliest of people together (and I still stand by the hypothesis that cellists are some of the whackiest people on this planet ^_^ v)
I learnt that wonderful things can happen if you have the courage to allow them to.
And so, keeping the smiles close to my heart, I close the chapter of my life story. If I have any regrets, it is only that I did not put more into year 2008. To the people that have walked 2008 with me, I thank you for adding your special touch to my life, be it big or small. We may not meet again, but the memories won't fade.
"変わりゆく季節と
瞬間（とき）の中
懐かしいｍｅｌｏｄｉｅｓ
大人になっても
色褪せはしないよ
僕達のｐｒｅｃｉｏｕｓ ｍｅｍｏｒｉｅｓ"
瞬間（とき）の中
懐かしいｍｅｌｏｄｉｅｓ
大人になっても
色褪せはしないよ
僕達のｐｒｅｃｉｏｕｓ ｍｅｍｏｒｉｅｓ"
- Stephanie, "Friends" (Gundam 00 2nd ending)
(Through the changing seasons,
And this fleeting moment,I listen to these nostalgic melodies.
Even when I become an adult,
Some things won't fade,
Like our precious memories.)
For the year 2009, God bless
Cheers
Jovi
Labels: Random Musings
Recollections
Sunday, November 23, 2008
So the last time I blogged was at the start of the semester. Tomorrow, with my last paper, ends it. Just would like to summarise the last 3 months with a two questions:If you could follow your dreams, where would you be right now?
If you had the capacity to do anything, what would it be?
I would like to talk about my answers, or rather my thoughts, but perhaps not on a place so public as a blog... So I'll leave you with a clue: noticed I changed the song on my blog? I had three pieces in mind, but decided on this one. I guess you could say it's significant, in more ways than one.
Ja ne~
Labels: Random Musings
Facebook can be such a depressing place...
Saturday, April 26, 2008
Have you ever looked at your MSN Messenger buddy list, or your Facebook friends list, and realised how many people you have lost contact with? We're past the era of writing letters, and "keeping in touch" is so much more convenient now. But after all technology has given us, it's still hard to stay in touch with everyone.I just realised today (yes, 4 months since school has started) that a girl two years my junior in BPGHS is now in ACJC. I missed her during Fun-O-Rama. Wonder how she's coping now. Well, she's the bubbly sort, so she'll fit in well with the people. =)
Such stuff makes me nostalgic. Gah. I miss studying in a real school, with real CCA-mates that understand what you're talking about when you complain about a certain teacher or a certain subject, with real seniors you can learn from, and real juniors whom you can pass the knowledge on to. Real brothers and sisters that stick with you through thick and thin. Real teachers that really care for you. Real classes, with real class nerds and real class idiots. Real school, with real emotions attached.
No one can live encased in ice forever. Everything in university is ambition- and greed-driven. And rightly so too, if not sadly so. When you spend too much time thinking about yourself only, you become a very lonely and cold person.
Labels: Random Musings
Yuuutsu
Sunday, March 09, 2008
Concert ended in a bang and lots of crack last night. Finally, 6 months of practice has paid off.Strangely, I don't feel accomplished. I don't feel... anything. If yesterday was a spectrum of glittery pastel shades, today is... colourless. Not even white or black. Just... emptiness.
Yesterday was so much fun. Once again, I proved that the cello/bass section is the most insane. And it wasn't just me who thought so. Yong Quan said, "Cello guys are the craziest." I corrected him: "Cello people are the craziest." And considering between us 10, we finished at least 90% of a pack of Van Houten's semi-sweet almonds, played in a stairwell, did funny poses using our bows as swords, and hummed our opening song right after the concert (complete with weird sounds meant to be taken as the percussion part), I think I'm not wrong in saying that.
I only wish I had more time to get to know them...
This is, I believe, my third post-concert melancholic post, in the entire history of this blog. I really should stop this.
Maybe just one photo, to keep the memories alive?
Minna, DAIsuki~~
Ja ne~
Labels: Random Musings
Recollections: Sisterhood of the Cello Bow
Friday, March 07, 2008
Look back in my archives and you might find a picture of a bunch of mad people standing in a circle, bows raised to meet in the middle of the circle, like a merry-go-round.Those were the good, old, stressful SYF days. Practicing 6 days a week in a cramped, smelly room for hours and hours does things to people: they either become enemies for life, or friends for life.
Thankfully for us, the second happened.
Fast-forward one year. The seniors had left; Elgin, Tovya and I were the only experienced people left in the ACJC CO cello section. And we had a bunch of wide-eyed newbies on our hands. We didn't have SYF this year, but we bonded anyway. We were brought together by common strife. All of us, while insane in our own ways, all hid something within. What we didn't know then was that we bore, to a certain extent, the same pain.
If I have learnt anything throughout these years working with other cellists, it is this: cellists are multi-faceted people. Yes, I know, so are many others. But cellists are... different. We smile on the outside and cry on the inside. We are not suicidal people, but simply highly receptive to the inner emotions. And we are radars for the inner emotions of others. We can tell if someone else is troubled inside, because their aura resonates with us.
We are like crabs, with their hard shells. But break apart the exterior (with a GN chopstick or otherwise), and you find we're "secretly squishy" inside. Just like Tieria, surrounded by a melancholic enigma. (if you don't believe me, just wait for ep 22. I have the feeling there's going to be drama, and lots of it)
I'm feeling nostalgic, please forgive me...
The 'A' level results were released today. I'm not sure how everyone did, but the general response so far isn't good. From what I gather, it's a nationwide thing, so don't be discouraged, everyone! Shinjiru da yo~
Anyway, tomorrow is NTU CO's concert. We will make it a night to remember. Whether through a great performance or through amazing screw-ups remains to be seen. I'm praying for the first. XD
For all who have bought tickets, arigatou gozaimasu! For those who didn't, shame on you! No, just kidding. Even I don't have too much faith in this concert, so how can I expect you to? =p
Praying for the best...
Ja ne~
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